Depression

[alexis_the_tiny]

A friend of mine once told me that she deals with her depression as if she were in an airplane when the oxygen masks drop--her priority is to put the mask on herself, first, and then put the masks on her kids. If she doesn't make sure that she's OK, then she hasn't the capacity to make sure that anyone else is having their needs met.

I love that analogy. It makes complete and utter sense. If I don't get enough sleep or food, I can't be the best teacher to my students at school.

It feels so wonderful to allow myself to just slack off on rides and stuff. The other night I went for a ride with friends and dropped off the ride after the first loop and ended up kicking back with another friend listening to Thai pop music while waiting for the others.

Part of the whole change really came from getting rid of some people in my life who were constantly making me feel like I needed to prove my worth to them. It was hard because they were people I thought were supposed to be the ones who were the closest to me and it turns out, they didn't really care much and I wasted all that time trying to get them to approve of me. That and therapy. Good grief.

[ClockworkOrange]

Alexis, I have not read this thread since you started it back in October 2010 and my goodness, you seem to be in far better spirits than before.

I vaguely remember you mentioning unicorns, so I have sent you this

Recently I received a PM from Miranda and she said "Enjoy your victories of each day". I feel this is very apt for most of us, so much so, I now have this under my signature.

Anyway, lovely to hear you seeming more positive.

[alexis_the_tiny]

Hi Clock! Its good to hear from you again! The unicorn and quote came at a really great time, its a bad night for me tonight. Good days, bad days, but at least its slightly easier to roll with it all. Love the unicorn!! Thank you.