A few years ago I lost 40 lbs and along the way developed a tremor. They technically call it a Benign Essential Tremor but benign it is not. At the height of it I couldn't write or eat anything with sauce or soup.

First the doctor did a battery of blood tests, I seriously had multiple blood panels, EEG, wore a heart monitor and then sent me to a neurologist for evaluation. The first neurologist was terrible and but me on an equally terrible medicine. At one point I was taking 250 mg 3x a day of Neurontin. I was dispressed, irritable and stupid (it made me feel foggy).

I finally gave the doctor the bird (not literally) and went to the Parkinson's clinic at Baylor College of Medicine. They are also a premier movement disorder clinic. There I got put on Primidone and went on with my life feeling less depressed and a little sharper. I moved here and found an amazing neurologist and gained 30 lbs where I was back at my pre-weight loss level. The neurologist became convinced last summer my tremor had done the rare thing of going into remission and took me off the meds.

Okay, now here we are. In the last month I have been back on Weight Watchers and lost about 10 lbs to date. The tremor is back. It is faint but it is here, the wobbly handwriting is the first sign and I know it will get worse if it follows last time's path. I am so frustrated. Every doctor says there is no weight correlation, my blood work looks normal everytime but something is up. I am going to my GP next week for a blood panel but I am so frustrated. I don't want to go back on meds but the alternative of throwing dressing, salsa, food everywhere and having handwriting I cannot read isn't an option for me either. I know we have worse health conditions on here, heck my husband has a worse one but dang it. Can I not be thin and shake free?

Sorry, reservation for a pity party of one.