Once again, I'm glad yesterday is over. I know I'm not the only one. I am thankful for the good 25 mile ride on my Trek 1500 yesterday and for my one-to-one time with the dogs and cats at the local animal shelter, but I can't help but feel down in the dumps because my situation doesn't allow me to celebrate Mother's Day the way it is "intended". My mother stepped out of my life when I married 18 years ago. My two adopted children never accepted me and they have been gone for years. Two of my co-workers asked me on May 12th, "Why don't you want to have kids?" How do you respond to such a painfully intrusive question?! The grief is bad enough without being judged as a defective outsider because you don't have kids. Please be more sensitive when fishing for information to satisfy curiosity. So, once again this year, I have revisited the sadness and the pain of my situation and my choices. I resent the pressure created by the media and by those around me who remind me every year that I don't have what I'm supposed to have according to their standards.
I feel for those who suffer silently and privately on Mother's Day. Your situations are just as important. Your feelings are valid. The good you do matters to the universe 365 days a year.
Thank you for listening.
This forum gives me the opportunity today to share how I feel. I have to share with others in order to move forward. I am happy the majority of the time and I want to return to my pre-May 12th state.
Barb