annie... I am late to see this but wanted to add my condolences... it's never easy to lose a pet... but you gave her the greatest gift of all by doing what was right for her not for you...
I lost my Gabi to cancer at age 7... I buried her with a letter from me, a pic f me and the dogs, her bowl and her favorite toy...
I placed a miniature rose above her and a metal kitty sculpture marks her resting place... she is buried below the front window where she loved to sit and watch the birds...
I know you will find much peace knowing your baby is nearby too...
here's Gabi's garden...
There is a fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness".
I'm a little late as well in my condolences, but know I know your pain too. I had to have my 14.5 yo Smokey put to sleep 2 years ago and it broke my heart. I was with him till the end and surprisingly it was quite peaceful. We have him buried in the back yard with a cat statue that actually looks like a grave marker that I finally found on Halloween (he was a black cat). I don't have photos handy, but I do go out to sit with him every now and again. Of course we hear/see/feel him around quite often. He used to jump on the bed and we can still tell when he comes around.
((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))
Don't think of it as getting hot flashes. Think of it as your inner child playing with matches