Dear LateLate,
I totally understand where you are at, but don't put so much pressure on yourself even asking the question!
I was quite a serious rider for 20 years, then had health issues that forced me off the bike. Recent advances in medicine have allowed me to get back on the bike after roughly 10 years. The bike I'm riding is my Cannondale hybrid, and I'm loving it. I appreciate how much fun my riding is, and have learned that any ride is a great ride, no matter how fast or how far.
I have a lovely Terry road bike, and I will be riding her again one day, but for now, I need to feel stable and "safe" and like I know how to ride without thinking every second...and my hybrid is great for that. I also like to tell myself that riding the heavier hybrid will help me get stronger, faster.
I ride now for pleasure; the health benefits come along, but I go out to have fun and meditate on how much I love to ride my bike. Just enjoy!
MaryS
Bike will get you through times of no money
better than money will get you through times of no bike.
(Don't know who said it first, but it's definitely true!)