It's been one of those days where you wished you never woke up. Of course it could be worse if it were the Ground Hog Day (the movie).

I'm generally positive of what is going on and what I am doing; but, it looks like I only post when things are "I'm mad" or some kind of drama going on. I really am not that dour, really I'm not.

Today is one of those days though... One of my favorite and most gorgeous and loving cat I ever had has been sick for some time. His time has come and I had to make the hard decision today and made an appointment with my vet for tomorrow. My kitty is a beautiful ragdoll with big beautiful blue eyes. He is just over ten years old but being most likely a purebred his life is cut short. I gave him some opiate drugs, anti-nausea drug, steroid, and sub-cutaneous fluid. For the first time in about a week, he seems to be relaxed and not in pain. Sound asleep on a makeshift bed I made for him next to my desk. I am deeply saddened by his condition but for now I am relieved for him in that he seems comfortable. Hope he is dreaming a good dream.

Then there was bit of confrontation with my hired farm help. Guys always want to be right and want to do it their way. Well too bad, boss lady says otherwise. And we'll leave it at that. But I'm still angry. He doesn't understand why I was still angry at the end of the day. sheesh. I have yet to understand man's psyche even after all these years of working with men.

Then some yahoo crazy, driving a jacked up "USA" pick up coming from the opposite direction, decided to play chicken with me by driving right into my lane. I'm sure he thought he was going to force me off into the shoulder. So I played chicken with him and he veered back into his lane. I've reached an age where I don't care if I die today (sometimes). So where is this country going?

Mentally, I'm getting really tired of living in this angry hateful society. So turned on some music Mitt Land by Helene Boksle, My Land by Secret Garden, Over the Rainbow by Israel (IZ) K..., The Way We Were by Barbra Streisand, Memories by Elaine Page. Sipping lemon-ginger tea, gingerly stroking the back of my kitty. Must be a comfy soft bed.

It just better not be a ground hog day when I wake up "tomorrow"

Gut nacht, vielleicht? Ja? Nein? Ich bin Dumb... Nicht weiss.