Incredibly complicated. My phone has been buzzing like crazy as I sit here seeing the kids at Hudson HS. So, the ex girlfriend did contact me finally. She knows. She is going to call me at 1:15, after I get home from work and PT. Then I will take a nice walk in the woods or an easy ride.
I guess what is so sad is that he was a person who everyone saw as perfect when we were kids. Smart, athletic, kind, socially aware. I know this means nothing in terms of mental health, and I wish I knew everything. I am glad we reconnected and I was able to apologize for making a bad choice at age 18.
However, the good thing is I had 2 wonderful talks with my best friend from middle/high school last night. It was like no time elapsed. Talking to her was like hearing my own voice.