I have always lacked ambition, much to the chagrin of my parents and teachers. Since I test really high on things like IQ tests there were all these expectations that I would "be somebody" and amount to something. It never bothered me that those things never came to fruition, but it made me sad that it seemed to disappoint people who mattered to me.

Now all of those people are gone and I'm happy as a clam with my life, doubly so that I didn't cave to meeting their expectations. It would have been different though if I'd set those standards for myself. Hope you find some peace with this Cat.