Thank you everyone! I am focusing on other things, but still moving. I have long had knee issues (patella-femoral syndrome) and I am working with an amazing PT to resolve those (I feel like I'm rebuilding from the ground up). She is helping me re-build a lot of my core strength and fix muscle imbalances. The goal is to have me running - but for now, I'm easing back into Pilates, taking really, absurdly long walks (mostly with my DH) and doing some gym exercises (elliptical, etc.). I am planning to add swimming back in too. I haven't even been on the bike trainer in a while. It will be there - and I do think I will be back eventually. Things are just too raw, and I need some time. If I get to a point where I really want to ride and the fear is stopping me, I will seek professional help. But - for now - I am moving, and letting myself feel what I need to feel.