(((((Blueberry)))))
I hear you. I struggle with these thoughts all the time. I'm fortunate enough to live in a place where these things happen infrequently. But they happen and I find myself increasingly anxious when riding. Mostly when riding with others because unfortunately, the riders around here are often unsafe in their behavior, so I've pretty much stopped riding with other people.
I'll be thinking of you and hoping you find a way past his.
Living life like there's no tomorrow.
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2007 Look Dura Ace
2010 Custom Tonic cross with discs, SRAM
2012 Moots YBB 2 x 10 Shimano XTR
2014 Soma B-Side SS