Crankin,

I would not be ready to say they are not treating me well. On the contrary. I'm sure it's me who did not ask the "correct" questions before goint out of the store with that bike. I loved the look of the bike so much, I never thought of asking more. And they did tell me when I told them I was not sure about road bike handlebars, they could change it for me to flat ones if it made me feel better/safer, etc. Which they did, free of charge, like many other things they did for me. I think most of my "frustation" is why would the mechanic think that the bars may have been too narrow for me (which made it harder for a newbie to control the bike) and no one else noticed that!! This is what got to me. Note that I did not know much, but enough to question. My husband's LBS was ready to send me to Marinoni to have one customed to me. It would have come up to same price but wanted me to get a steel bike. I wanted carbon. Seriously....I did not need carbon bike that much. Just that hubby is drooling over his and he pushed me to carbon: lighter, smoother, blablabla. And the worst is to admit that hubby's LBS may have been right all along.

Last night I was having a discussion with him and told him I don't know anymore if I like riding it. I'm afraid. Afraid of what? Don't know. It's just I'm not sure I feel safe on it. Hard to explain I know...I'm confused myself. lol I don't get that "losing control" type of thing on my old 1992 hybrid. But then again you have to compare apples with apples. That hybrid probably weighs over 30 pounds. Totally different handling, etc.

My husband is asking what I fear on this bike. And the more I think about it...the more it is crazy as unfounded. They are too easy to get flat tires. I'm afraid of that. Last night, he went with his bike club and a girl had a flat tire. Every ride someone gets a flat (our roads are bad! - Seriously). So I tend to remain on bike paths. What's the point of having a "racer" bike if you're not speeding (and I mean cycling at a decent road bike speed), not wanting to be on roads heuh!

He said we should try to change my tires. But not to dream as 2mm wider won't make a huge difference. But it may be just enough to make me feel more secure on my bike as I would "feel" like having more grip on the ground, less air in the tires (now I have 110 psi), a smoother ride, etc.

Like hubby tells me: until you remove that mental blockage of yours out of your mind, no matter what type of bars or tires, you will be afraid. He's asked me: how many people have I seen lose control or fall while I was riding? NONE. So why worry. He's 100% right. He said I have to get out of my mind the way I have to "drive" my road bike vs old hybrid. 2 different things. And when I tell him I'll sell my Pink Lady and use my old hybrid he reminded me how sore I was from shoulder blades, knees, etc. Something I have not experienced with my Kuota. And again he's right.

So I may try the 25mm tires and if it does not do, then what? Change bike. Try to trade it with another bike at the shop? That would mean I'd probably lose 1/2 of what I paid. It's a lot of money. But I may have to bite the bullet and just swallow it all if it makes me enjoy riding. OR, I could just buy a trainer and use the bike on it, where I would feel 100% safe. Same end results for me.

Ahhhhh when your mind plays game with you.