Will you have regrets?

[shootingstar]

For #1 it has been a long road, hard at times to make key personal choices to live life as close as it fits my goals. Can't say I'm there 100% because sometimes the necessity of a job to bring in money for my own long term future, forces a person into a corner to make difficult career and location choices.

I envy people who just can leave a full-time job and just travel for a year or longer overseas. I have never had that mindset. Having experienced unemployment 3 times for certain times of my career, does make me a bit more cautious in my life journey choices.

Yes, for me to live the life I live now, took persistence etc. because my life is totally different from...ie. what my parents led, what they valued for their children. However I don't deny that I have become the person I made because of both the choices I made and also how I was raised because some of that foundation (roots) is good also. It's just finding personal ways to disband the negative stuff. It's not over.


#3 Has taken a long time but much better than a few decades ago.

I do regret some things that are painful, that I still grieve. But I have memories of good times with loved one. I only ask for more courage to face with grace, what lies ahead. (We were told maybe my father has 5 months to live (prostate cancer)...?? Even my doctor sister isn't sure how to interpret this after she spoke with the oncologist. This gets super complicated with my mother who doesn't know much English and her children losing Chinese fluency.)

Strange as this may seem to some, but for the past year, I have a powerful urge to share stories and photos of what I've experienced through my personal blog. Non-bloggers wonder how on earth can some people spend time on a personal blog. I see it like a piece of art work, a novel or a building a house (of memories), weaving a fantastic tapestry.