+1 with ny biker.

After all, deep depression often means a person doesn't doesn't want to clean their home regularily (if they are normally a neat person). That's the first sign.
You're on your road to recovery ....a lot more than you think.

Try not to overthink or rationalize our daily activities ...to be you. Be you now. (I hope I make sense.)

I'm not sure why I'm not cycling a lot longer distances regularily so far this year. I do bike daily and coming out of winter season I should be quadrupling or quintupling my daily distances or so, especially on weekends at minimum. But so far not a lot longer ride distances, and I have a lot of excuses if you were to corner me for an answer.

There's a part of me that is a bit calmer and in less grieving turmoil (over my sister's death) with a much more profound awareness that every bike ride I do each time ...is a gift to me. That I still have the ability to ride and enjoy it. When I ride with my partner..it's a double gift for us.