I feel your pain, and understand your lack of desire to ride.

Last year, I was waking up at 6:30am on weekends to go for rides, rushing home from work to go for evening rides....this year, hardly anything. Work has been stressful, depression is hanging over me. The thought of going for a ride is exhausting. Ugh, pumping up the tires, putting the shorts on, filling up the water bottle....all of the sudden it seemed like SO much WORK to go for a ride.

I am so mad at myself because i missed some of the best riding days this spring to lay around in bed and do nothing all day. And now i feel like I am out of shape and can't ride with my normal crew.

However....I did "force" myself to go for a ride last Monday and today. And I remembered why I do it. It is the only time I can really forget about all of those other things that are stressing me out. I don't think about work, or family problems, or loneliness because I am focusing on my riding, and my mind can just be free for a few hours. I only did 12 miles today but i felt great afterwards, and will try to remember that "great" feeling the next time I'd rather hide under the covers.

Like others have said, maybe sometimes you just need a break from it....it's not the right thing for you right now. Maybe cleaning was a good thing for yout today. It's ok to not ride. But I bet your Ruby really does miss you Good luck working through things.