I failed!

[Bike Writer]

I don't know what to say except I feel bad for you. If it's any consolation your performance today was a rock star by me. All things considered what you accomplished was amazing. I'm sure you can't imagine that right now because you sound brokenhearted over it but maybe in a day or two you will see this in a different light like others will.

I hope your hubby is okay and on the mend soon!

[OakLeaf]

What nybiker said.

I'm betting your bonk had a WHOLE lot more to do with your illness and lack of sleep. I think you're right that if you'd been healthy, you wouldn't have lost that much fitness in 5 weeks, only some sharpness.

Focus this week on building yourself back up nutritionally. Are you getting plenty of protein and iron? Whenever I've been sick I crave red meat like CRAZY as soon as I'm well. Your body needs a ton of protein to make all those white blood cells to fight off infection. And water, and electrolytes.

You might get yourself checked out for parasites too ... let your doctor know you've been traveling.

[murielalex]

Ditto what everyone else has said. Eighty miles with everything else you had going on is remarkable. I wouldn't call it a failure at all, but more along the lines of accepting being human.