Quote Originally Posted by badger View Post
..... I've always been negative, "the glass is half empty" type of person and I'm sure it's no coincidence that people at work think I'm this miserable, cranky person. I've always avoided situations, people, and activities because I'm always afraid (afraid of everything). What if I've been blind all my life, getting by just feeling around when I can open my eyes and see?
Really sorry for your struggles, this sounds like a difficult situation for you and your BF. I hope the counseling and anti depressants help. I don't have anxiety, but do have the low grade depression and have felt the fear you mention...fear of rejection, fear of criticism, fear of failing....so I just don't try things, don't talk to new people, etc. Things came to a head last year, and I finally went to a pysch. I didn't want to take anything either ,but I knew I needed help. I've been on Welbutrin for a year, and have been doing better. I've had only very minor side effects, but nothing to make me consider stopping. I hope you have success with both the counseling and medication. Good for you for seeking support for yourself....that is really hard to do sometimes.