Well, the topic of antidepressants came up during the initial session on Saturday. I've had anxiety pretty much my whole life (since about the age of six if you can believe it). I've gone through a lot of cognitive behavioural therapy as well as other forms in the past 20 years but never took drugs and was proud of that. However, this particular therapist did suggest that sometimes it's beneficial to take something that will be ale to open a pathway into utilizing CBT more effectively if the low grade depression or anxiety weren't so prominent.

I wasn't going to because I didn't like all the horror stories of the side effects, but I'm going to give it a try because I've always been negative, "the glass is half empty" type of person and I'm sure it's no coincidence that people at work think I'm this miserable, cranky person. I've always avoided situations, people, and activities because I'm always afraid (afraid of everything). What if I've been blind all my life, getting by just feeling around when I can open my eyes and see?

Regardless of what happens with my bf, I need to work on being happy, and I can't say I have ever been (in life). So I am going to try this drug and see if it will make a difference.

As for my bf, I got a text from him this morning when I wasn't expecting to and was very encouraged but then he later texted to say he will decide tomorrow morning if he will take some sick days or come in. Sometimes I wish time will just fly by because sometimes a day just takes too long to pass.