Shannon,

I empathize with you fully. I've had a couple of health issues and a large personal issue as well that I am working on putting behind me. I also dislike group rides for the same reason, I don't keep up well because I'm a slow rider and struggle with hills, it's demoralizing to be in them so I ride solo or with just one or two friends. So I have to say I feel like I'm starting all over again. I've found my spark in my ride last Saturday when I got off the beaten path for real and did some exploring. I love to explore new places and it made my ride and makes me want to ride again.