Can't seem to get back on the bike

[shootingstar]

I am very sorry for the loss of your ex-hubby and co-parent to your daughter.

Rather than analyze why you are not cycling right now, just let it be for now. Then when you have enough energy, just do it. As you know, just small cycles to do stuff. Very sudden, unnatural death is just very hard. I didn't lose interest in cycling after my sister's suicide, but I just did it in a undemanding, brainless kind of way. In a way for awhile, the riding was for the memory of her...for all the beautiful mountain views I would see over the past few years because I knew she loved those types of views.

The shock was so enormous I could not even write about cycling for awhile. I know what you mean about feeling like a martian...because not everyone experiences such traumatic, unnatural deaths in their family.

I read your blog post where you mention the untimely death of him occurring around the same time of your long bike trip.