ah jeez... I SO empathize with you... I got divorced in 2004... I had no friends who'd ever been divorced... they were either all still married or still single... and no one who really understood a lot of what I was feeling... heck even I didn't understand all of what I was feeling... I found this site and joined... it helped...
http://love.ivillage.com/messageboards
scroll down and there are different boards... including one called "Surviving Divorce"... it's other people living thru the same issues, feelings, betrayals etc... hugs, I sure do know how incredibly tough it is...
There is a fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness".