I'm so sorry for your loss. After I lost my father last summer, I felt very inspired to race. It was that same feeling of wanting to really live life, to get out of my comfort zone and push myself; to be more like my father.

I haven't toured, but I have driven across country and I experienced a feeling of existing in a very strange and beautiful "in the moment" place which I'm not really able to describe, but you might understand what I mean. I hope this trip gives you comfort.