Can someone plz help me find my motivation??!

[hebe]

Sounds like you are comparing yourself to everyone else, all of whom are faster in your eyes.

How about not thinking about them and just go on exploratory rides. You can learn your new area that way without having to go on a club ride. You could also find out if there are others your speed--I bet there are and they are intimidated by the fast club rides.

Running errands and commuting by bike are great ways to get where you need to go and learn the lay of the land in your new place.

+1 to all of this. I've lived here for years, but never really knew the roads and trails until I started riding. If it takes a while longer to come back from vacation, so be it.

[Slowspoke]

I have gone through something similar with other hobbies and my hubby. He is uber focused and intense and it took all the fun out for me. When I realized what I was missing, I let him know that sometimes I have to do it on my own and in my own way. I am much happier now!

I second going on some errands. I moved 3 years ago to an area that is not bike friendly and doesn't have pretty routes to take. I just do loops for a quick ride with my dog and run some errands. For bigger rides, I drive out to a nicer area or metro park. The mojo will come back when you start looking for fun.