I knew you two would be here for me. Thank you.
I think maybe I never felt sad through any of this because it would interfere with treatment, and now that I'm done, the floodgates have opened. I will let myself go through this, too, don't you worry.
I knew you two would be here for me. Thank you.
I think maybe I never felt sad through any of this because it would interfere with treatment, and now that I'm done, the floodgates have opened. I will let myself go through this, too, don't you worry.
'02 Eddy Merckx Fuga, Selle An Atomica
'85 Eddy Merckx Professional, Selle An Atomica
'10 Soma Double Cross DC, Selle An Atomica
Slacker on wheels.
One is so focused getting through treatments that the emotional impact often hits once you're through that. The transition from treatment to getting on with your new 'normal' takes some time. The fatigue will pass but I found it took awhile. Hang in there, you've made it this far and stayed really active during, that is a real plus to the overall scheme of things.
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What Indy said. I'm glad you plan to let yourself process this all emotionally.
And I think PTSD is certainly a possibility. If you think you're having that type of symptoms, some guidance might be helpful for you. I had flashbacks for more than a year, and what I went through wasn't even close to what you've just done.
Speed comes from what you put behind you. - Judi Ketteler
Maybe talking about cancer for so much of the ride (with my well intentioned friend) brought feelings up. I'm just having a well deserved surprise pity party, which I didn't see it coming.
I obviously need new shoes.Doesn't that always make you feel better? Or cake.
'02 Eddy Merckx Fuga, Selle An Atomica
'85 Eddy Merckx Professional, Selle An Atomica
'10 Soma Double Cross DC, Selle An Atomica
Slacker on wheels.
How 'bout wearing some new shoes while you eat cake?![]()
Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
--Mary Anne Radmacher
Or eating cake while shopping for shoes.
I once read about a guy who went through multiple surgeries for cancer and several rounds of chemo, and a few years later he won a few big bike races. But that first time back on a bike, he damn near fell over he was so tired.
Just take it one day at a time...
- Gray 2010 carbon WSD road bike, Rivet Independence saddle
- Red hardtail 26" aluminum mountain bike, Bontrager Evoke WSD saddle
- Royal blue 2018 aluminum gravel bike, Rivet Pearl saddle
Gone but not forgotten:
- Silver 2003 aluminum road bike
- Two awesome worn out Juliana saddles
This is the time to be doing nice, easy, slow rides. Enjoy the view. I found when I couldn't keep up because of medical issues, I had to let myself "let it go," and focus on different kinds of riding. Eventually "it" came back, when I wasn't really thinking about it. Riding at any speed and walking are two of the best things you can do for yourself during your recovery, because both of them will regulate your emotions.
2015 Trek Silque SSL
Specialized Oura
2011 Guru Praemio
Specialized Oura
2017 Specialized Ariel Sport