Congratulations, Emily. I feel just like you; I'll never feel "good" while running. But, although I am on an extended forced rest from running due to a probable stress fracture, it's nice to hear about others' adventures. I've certainly had the urge to run, which must count for something. But, I am going to wait, probably until the spring or late winter to start up again, so I can enjoy my winter sports.
2015 Trek Silque SSL
Specialized Oura
2011 Guru Praemio
Specialized Oura
2017 Specialized Ariel Sport