Susan- You are not alone at all. I lost a lot of weight in 2004, down to 125 at one point. I maintained solidly until late 2005. I gained back 20 of the 50 pounds I lost. Then in late 2008 took most of it off to about 140. Then I got on Lexapro, it made me let my guard down, it made me less active and it actually wasn't fully controlling my depression which made me care less about everything. I started just slowly eating more and more. That was almost two years ago, I ballooned to 174 when I switched medicine last fall. I took off about 10 pounds just by being active but I still wasn't disciplined in my choices. So last week I weighed in at 163 and started Weight Watchers again. I know I need to commit, it isn't one thing it is the big picture. A beer or two isn't a problem, it is doing it several times a week after mountain biking. A serving of ice cream isn't the problem, it is half a pint or more!
Bottom line, you're not alone but it is hard to say you're one who feels like you failed. We didn't fail, we just have a new opportunity and a new challenge to conquer! You can't fail when you are willing to try again and learn.
Amanda
2011 Specialized Epic Comp 29er | Specialized Phenom | "Marie Laveau"
2007 Cannondale Synapse Carbon Road | Selle Italia Lady Gel Flow | "Miranda"
You don't have to be great to get started, but you do have to get started to be great. -Lee J. Colan