July/August Weight Loss Challenge

[Tri Girl]

I just looked at the pictures of you on your profile and blog.
Guess what? You're not fat.

Thank you. I'm just having a pity party lately. Frustrated. Training for IM should be helping me at least gain muscle mass, but my body isn't changing. Last week only lost .3, this week gained. I'm just so tired of it all. Doesn't help that I do triathlons where I'm surrounded by the (probably too) skinniest people who have their fair share of eating disorders. I just feel like the fat one of my peers, and I am in comparison. I need to stay away from cameras and mirrors because I feel beautiful until I see myself- and then the self-loathing begins... it's all in my head. I wish I could fix it.

\Small amounts like that could be due to water gain/loss as much as anything else.

I know you're probably right. If I wait a day or two it might be different.