Honestely, I've been depressed about losing my cat. I've been on the verge of tears often and now we have zero pets. We're going on vacation in a couple of months so want to wait until we return before adopting.
So there I was feeling low energy, depressed and my first group ride, first 30 mile ride, out in a rural setting with rain/wind. My emotions were raw, I felt vulnerable and actually got off and walked a little while trying to fight back tears of frustration. So not only was I out of breath by trying to ride too fast up a long rolling hill into a rainy headwind, but I was fighting back tears of overall feeling overwhelmed and it felt like someone was squeezing my larynx and I couldn't breathe. My friend who I signed up with was on a time schedule and had to be back home by a certain time, so I told her to go on ahead of me. She was about 10 minutes ahead the entire rest of the way. When DH & I arrived my friend had already eaten and had to go. She did not realize how raw, vulnerable, sad, frustrated I had been feeling....
So I really wasn't in a very good place, emotionally, for something that for me takes so much focus and energy. I have no energy....I am sad....I feel lonely. I know this will pass.