Cutting things out of one's life can be difficult and it can be a blessing in disguise. I don't mean when you're having to cut out things like food and heat for your home in winter. I mean *things* or services we get used to that we really don't need. I've done what you are doing and it's not easy. I have often felt that I deserved more and that it just wasn't fair. I am comfortable now, however I have made some conscious decisions to cut things out as a way being less "attached to material things". I haven't had any big "aha" moments, but as time passes without these things I realize that I'm no worse off, and perhaps in some ways, things are better.
I hope you get through these times alright, keep your chin up, and by all means have an awesome time on your get away!