!!Linzq --- hugs to you! Breathe and know it does get better maybe even fun soon. I agree with Catrin ditch the clipless pedals if they are making you anxious. I fought using them for awhile and then realized going up big hills is easier with them. Everyone I know has turtled and crashed in them for me its been part of the learning curve. I laugh about it now. Give yourself a break and remember riding a bike is fun,or at least it should be.