Thank you all so much for sharing and support.
I finally decided to go for a slow, leisurely ride this warm evening just to get out of the house. I must say that my legs felt like lead like my bike just wouldn't go. I even stopped and checked to make sure I didn't have a flat tire. Now I'm back, I am aching and sore all over my body, especially my legs.
When my mom died suddenly 18 years ago I was so shocked that I really couldn't cry for about one year! During that time I experience 24 hour, non-stop pain all over my body from my neck down. It was only when I was able to start having "real" cries that the pain slowly went away, until one day I was pain free! It seems that I somehow hold in my grief, and it manifests as physical pain.
I guess I better have a good cry. I haven't even been married 17 years. Theodore is the one being who has been with me the longest (other than parents).