Wow; that's pretty heavy stuff, WR. I'm just glad that you finally pieced it together and sought professional help. Hopefully your doc will keep a close eye on your meds and help you deal with any side effects. Is conventional talk therapy also recommended. Good luck with dealing with this.
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