lph - love your post!!

I don't remember who posted here asking something along the lines of "how can you not know you are eating unhealthy?"

My highest weight was 245, I am down to around 160 now. I am hoping to lose at least 12 more. This process has taken me several years. I can tell you that there are different levels of knowing. At my highest weight I knew I was really fat. I knew I ate far too much, but then on the other hand, I didn't really know HOW bad it was. There is some kind of mechanism going on - maybe denial (that I have seen in many other heavy people) about exactly how bad the situation is. I also think that for many of the mirror lies. I still don't know what I look like! How many times have you heard someone say "I didn't know i looked like that?" Until they saw a certain picture. I certainly never thought I looked how I look in old photos. Even today, I don't think I look like how I look in photos. It's one of the reasons I absolutely HATE having my picture taken.

The whole mess is just really confusing isn't it?