I agree, Oakleaf. I cannot stand the thought of death. It scares the crap out of me. You're here and then you're gone. No one knows what it feels like.
While I have had minimum trouble dealing with the death of others, I absolutely do not want to think about my own mortality. It's easier for me to think about one of my kids dying than to think of myself dying; something I've been forced to do having a kid in the military.
I know some will say it's because of my lack of a concept of "the after-life," and it is true my religion emphasizes life here on earth. I don't feel like I am waiting to be reunited with others who have died. It's sort of a feeling like we are doomed to begin with.