Depression

[Aggie_Ama]

((Hugs)) I have been there too. Sitting on the side of the trail crying uncontrollably and DH asking what was wrong but you don't even know. The days where brushing my teeth was a battle. I never understood how much depression controlled my life. My doctor at first didn't know if it was just a bout or long term. So he told me to work out, like it is that easy. I was angry running and bawling cycling. I don't have advice but I you have virtual support and a cheerleader. You can still do the Du and you can still be the strong trooper you ARE not WERE.

[alexis_the_tiny]

You guys are the best. Thanks so much for the kind words, it really helps knowing someone knows what I'm talking about. I was on meds for a bit but turns out, I'm one of those 'lucky' few who experience suicidal thoughts as a side effect so I made the choice to pass. Oh irony, what a cruel b****.

I got to hang out with a friend's dog later, there's really nothing like doggy company to make things feel a bit less dire. I need to remind myself that I do races because I want something in my life depression cannot take away from me. If I can't fight this with anything else, might as well bank in on my notorious stubborn streak.

[Catrin]

Stubborness is a great thing to fall back on and glad to hear you got to hang out with a dog. Hanging out with a cat helps me in the same way.

Different meds do act differently - back in the day I couldn't take SSRI meds because of certain...side effects that I won't mention, but I could take Wellbutrin just fine as it isn't an SSRI - it works with another chemical in the brain (dopamine). I am thankful that I was able to give that up about 6-7 years ago, but it was a life saver at the time...