I am sorry that you are having to endure this right now, but proud of you that you came here to tell us about this. I had a huge problem with clinical depression for decades until about 6 years ago, and it comes in so many forms. I know what this feels like.

+1 on what Knotted said about getting your vitamin levels checked. There are so many things that affect mood in a real way, and that is without throwing in a tendency for major depression.

Sending many hugs for you, and while it probably doesn't feel like it, this will pass. Just keep trying to put one foot in front of another while working with your doctor...

{{{Alexis}}}