Most of us on this forum don't race, although it's great to hear from those who do. I certainly don't aspire to that and never will. I enjoyed being around racers/showing my support for my son and exchange student, but since I didn't start this until I was in my late forties, it never even was on the table as something I was interested in.
I think all of the comments stating don't look at your computer, take a slow ride, find the joy, reflect a need that most of this have to make this fun. When I had to slow down, I did, but it still pissed me off. I don't need the "bad information" to tell me what I already know... and this is exactly what the others here have expressed: forget about all of the numbers stuff and enjoy. Like when you were a kid. I am not afraid of "poor numbers," I just don't want it rubbed in my face. It helped me to think about my friends who couldn't do even one eighth of what i could do, even when I was struggling. For people who hang around cyclists all of the time, one's perspective can get a little, ah, out of whack. I know i have been guilty of this. It's why I continue to ride with my friends who are slower than me and will never be as fast.
Motivation is a very tricky thing, especially for people making lifestyle changes. What works for one doesn't always work for another. Training logs and technology increased my negativity and anxiety over cycling. Just one more thing to do, like work. Quitting Bike Journal was the best thing I ever did. In fact, I started improving after I stopped logging my miles there.