OMG This hurts SO bad

[OakLeaf]

he must find me completely unattractive and repulsive.

I understand that rejection makes you feel this way. But you're NOT.

You're beautiful. Cherish yourself. Just because you're not the one for him - and I know that hurts - but just because of that, doesn't make you less of a person.

[nancielle]

Now I know it was me all along that wasn't worth it.

To sort of piggyback on Oakleaf's response,

No, no, no. If you weren't worth something to him you two wouldn't have ever been friends. While it hurts excruciatingly bad right now, it sounds like the romantic chemistry you hoped for wasn't there for him. Has nothing to do with your worth.

Others here have offered some good advice. Take extra good care of yourself. Cry yourself through boxes of tissues then go do something nice for yourself. {{{hugs}}}

[WolfGirl]

To sort of piggyback on Oakleaf's response,

No, no, no. If you weren't worth something to him you two wouldn't have ever been friends. While it hurts excruciatingly bad right now, it sounds like the romantic chemistry you hoped for wasn't there for him. Has nothing to do with your worth.

Exactly. I know it's impossible to believe right now, but it's the truth. My second relationship after my divorce ended up like this, and it was for reasons outside myself that I kept moving at all through the searing pain. But I did, and when I look back on it now I remember, but it seems so far away (about 2.5 years ago now) both in time and space. The running thing seems like a great idea; an actual representation of what you'll be doing: putting one foot in front of the other until it seems natural again to lift your head.

((((rollie)))) You can do this.