ohhhh...so sorry
I am so sorry for your loss - I am a big animal lover and lost my first dog this year - it is very hard, no matter what the circumstances......
Medicine is never an exact science - and yes, mistakes do happen, but please don't dwell on this - surely no one enters veterinary medicine who does not love animals. Even when we do our best, we don't always get the outcome we want. I would give her the benefit of the doubt.
Do you have other babies to comfort you???? I adopted another dog when I saw moose going downhill and nearing the end, and it was a tremendous comfort to have bean during my mourning of moose. They were together for about 6 months before he left us.
Again...so sorry.
debi
"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet - only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired and success achieved" - Helen Keller