Quote Originally Posted by OakLeaf View Post
I think you just need to be ready, and to accept where you are right now....<snip>...I think you also need to be okay with not making fast progress with your speed or strength on the bike, considering the other demands on your time. It sounds like you're still expecting that from yourself..<snip> Ride for joy. Forget the rest of it.
Thanks Oakleaf. I remember you from the *two* other times I came dragging into this forum in the same state I'm in now. You're right, I think that for one, I never really thought about how the 7 years OFF my bike(s) might be valuable. Also, the other two times I showed up here, ready to Start All Over, I was still rather grandiose from former ability, and more importantly, was not able to accept my condition of perimenopause being a COLOSSAL factor. It really is. I mean, my body feels like an imposter, it's as if I'm trying to live true to myself remotely, from inside an out-of-control physical presence. Eating is the most difficult discipline for me at this time, so I must compensate with the calories out. All in good time, and there's only one place to begin, and that's down on the 'flatter' section of the mtn, doing the 4-10mi rides, before I am fit enough to really get some confidence riding from home. Music? PM me, lets talk !