You're only a cycling wannabe if you're doing something without truly making an effort but want to reap the results of being a 'cyclist'. However from your story, I refuse to take you for a cycling wannabe. Things like these take time. You can't rush things. If you feel that you're not making enough progress, then step up a notch to improve and do more. Or you may opt to join groups so as to have a cyclist peer group to help you get through your errs and mistakes.

Don't dwell on the badside of things. It'll only get worse.

But if you feel you must quit and move on for something else, then go ahead. You can give yourself a pat on the shoulder that you actually tried to cycle in the first place.

Think about it hard though. You might just be going through a phase where you feel empty and uninterested for now. People go through that. Not just with cycling but in other fields of interest and even work!