A friend's suicide

[jeannierides]

There is nothing I can add that hasn't been said. You are in my thoughts.
Jeannie

[zoom-zoom]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't be so hard on yourself. I can't imagine what your friend went through, but I am certain he knew he was loved and had a good friend in you.

[Catrin]

{{{Indy}}} I can't say more than others already have, but I am sure that he enjoyed the bike time with you. It is no easy thing to lose a friend under any circumstances...

[spindizzy]

((((Indy)))) Everyone here has said it well - I cannot say it any better. Brain tumors can also cause one to act differently - perhaps he saw that or was a victim of it...in any case - cherish your favourite memories for that is who he was.

[indysteel]

Thanks to all of you for the hugs. I went to yoga tonight and had a good cry. It appears there's going to be a memorial service, too. I'm glad of that. I'd like to think it will provide an opportunity for us to celebrate who he was before he was sick.

Thanks again for the comforting words.

[bcipam]

3 years ago my brother in law committed suicide (although in my heart I think it was just an accidental overdose). As you can imagine it left alot of pain, hurt and disbelief... I probably will never get over it. There isn't a day that goes by I don't say to myself... "what could I have done? I should have been there! I should have been more helpful..." Bottom line I can't change what happened.

What I can do is take with me the knowledge that there are some very vulnerable people out there, people who need a "ear" and someone to listen. I now volunteer Saturday nights for a suicide hotline. Maybe I can save someone elses life. Or maybe not but at least I'm trying.

That said, we can only be responsible for ourselves. What happened to your friend was sad but maybe he is now at peace. Take comfort in that.

[indysteel]

(((Pam))) re: your BIL. How very sad. How good of you, though, to channel your pain into helping others.