WindingRoad -

Good for you to reach out with honesty and bravery despite the current struggle with the inner chaos.
It isn't fair the way anxiety revisits us without warning, but the demons show up at random times. For me, I'll know that this will probably dog me till I die. Accepting this gives me control. I have social phobias and am very susceptible to trembling, avoiding eye contact, and painful neck tension when in certain situations.
Sounds like you've had some exposure to rational thinking/cognitive restructuring in therapy. This is good. I hope you locate a therapist who knows how to address anxiety. The EMDR suggestion is excellent.
Respect yourself as a human. You are doing your best for where you are in your life journey.
I had a miserable reappearance of almost incapacitating anxiety in the spring of 2008. It came without warning, lasted for 3 months and then went away. I am convinced that it was a biochemical surge of some type. I could have taken meds to cope, but I am very anti-pill and more coping straight on.
Focus on getting through this. Believe in making it to the other side.
Once again . . . respect yourself!

Barb