So I got up to run my 7 miles this AM. Was out the door before 6. It was in the 60's and at first it felt "cool".
I really thought I was thinking positive. But everytime I looked at my pace it was just dragging. Then I got all "mental". But keep hoofing it along. I actaully only did 5.5 miles. Just was not feeling right. In fact I "re-thought" my whole training plan.

I picked this plan to be agresssive. But I really am NOT a 5 out of 7 day runner. This plan does "speed type" work much later in the plan. So right now, maybe I am where I should be...but I am not feeling it. Maybe I need to cross trian more. (Lots of maybe's here). I know many people work full time and do this...but I am just struggling. Then it is the holidays. And I move to a new job Jan 4th (good thing). But have to "transition" out of this job...no one filling the postion right now. New job will be 2/3 times (not completely full time--yippee). BUT have to keep up some of my current job (extra hours). So just trying ot juggle all this change. And darn it--it is the holidays. I am NOT enjoying myself. And I should. Instead I am stress when I can run when I have a dinner plan w/ friends or family almost every night until X-mas. This is stuff I shouldl WANT to do.

So today I gave myself FULL permission to just shorten or blow off my runs this week. I WILL do my long run. But otherwise--this is just not the week for it. I am looking at doing a major tweak to my plan...I know I need a "speed work" run, a tempo run and a long run. So I need to map that out, add a bike and or swim day and start having run with it again.

I cannot thank everyone enough, especially Colby, for all the words of support and encouragement. I just have to realize this training plan is not working for me....at least not right now. I know I can do the distance--slow and steady is my world. So if I want to work on speed--then I need to look at the quality not quantity of my workouts. I have speed workouts and intervals I did w/ my coach when trianing for my 1/2...so I'll pull those out.

Ok, I feel better now!
(Well almost)