I agree with what people have said so far and really feel for you Barb. Children are your children no matter how they came into your life. I like to think that your story hasn't ended. Your children are adults now and hopefully, at some point, they will start thinking about their childhoods and want to talk to you. For some people it takes a long time to get to a reflective period in their lives but I hope it happens for them. As for resources, I really don't have any ideas that haven't been suggested. I think there might be a lack of information because people don't like to say anything negative about adoption since it already has its own stigmas. But there should be something out there. I like the idea of starting your own