Thanks Indi for the works of encouragement.
And Cobly for all the input.
I also freaked myself out by looking at my TP as it increase mileage on Weds and Fridays...just not sure how I will fit it all in. I am also struggling w/ moving runs around d/t the holidays and other stuff that occur during this time. And I am betting "ok" with the fact that my goal may change to "just finish".
I plan to try the massage therapist again...in a week. I do need to have some dialog. Everyone that I know and that goes to him just says it takes a while to get used to the massage and him. I know part of it is me....I can't relax in yoga or any of those things where you are to relax and quit thinking. The only time recently I can think of when I was totally "in another place" was our bike trip in Moab. Biking up to the Canyonlands Natl park andit is all up hill...and i just got into a slow climbing groove and zoned out. I can also do tha that in runs. I suddenly look around and think..."where am I?".

I decied to run post work instead on this AM, since still a bit tired. Sunday I need to find a "new" route since my usually running route is being used for a 1/2 marathon. I would be running up stream!

Later!
Thanks all!
K