Falling back in love with the bike?

[Miranda]

Hi Kelly

Your post caught my eye as I sat down here at the pc. Just got in from my first ride in a while myself. Had a bad crash a couple months ago. Unfortunately my medical news stuff of what all is permanent damage from my crash seems to be going the wrong way lately. Bleah. But, what can you do? We can't turn back time. So, forward is the only way to go.

First thing my DH asked when I got in was: "how was it? we're you riding scared?". Not a word about how I physically felt etc. Well, that is a good question. I would say I was on high alert of what could re-crash me. But, I tried to take a deep breath and not be over-come with fear & panic. Because surely I would crash then.

I went less than 10mi on my most familiar road traveled today. I picked a favorite landmark, and set my goal to that. Once there, I just paused and took it in like it was a sight for sore eyes. That almost makes me cry typing it. Because like you, I was having this feeling: do I ride again? or do I not? Well, those tears stem from the memory that I really do love my bike. And what all it does for my life on so many levels. Living without it would be sad.

I say just forget about the performance. Unless it makes you feel better. A diff time I was injured (not from crashing) I ditched all of my electronic bici toys. They just depressed me when I started to compare what I rode before. I just rode from the heart, and how my body felt. Simple.

I'm not sure where you store your bike vs. run gear. But, if they are close to each other... one day your heart will tell you when you go to put on the running shoes, that you'd like to put on the bici shoes instead.

Bikes are patient... it will be there waiting when you are ready.

Miranda