I'm sorry about your news Donna.
I wasn't going to post anything, but after I read this thread I had to get it off my chest. I am profoundly saddened by having to have my dog put down last Friday. Sparky was a mixed mutt that shared his life with us for 13 1/2 years.
I am astounded at how much this hurts right now. There were frustrations as well as the good times. But when I say profoundly saddened, I feel like my heart hurts, and I had no idea how many times I would look for him and how much he affected my entire life. My whole body aches, and I mean it feels like my muscles are cooked like after a 100 miler. I don't want to replace his memory, but my husband will probably never let me have another dog anyway. For 23 years he has let me have every animal I've ever wanted, and now it's his turn to not have one if he chooses. But my heart and my house are empty. Someone tell me please that this will pass.