I just lost my dad to f***ing cancer. Before and during this time I have been dealing with huge work-related stress due to layoffs in our group and the added work I have had to shoulder. The whole process has been mentally/emotionally exhausting. Although I sometimes don't feel like getting on the bike, it has been very therapeutic when I can. I need to bike. You need to do whatever helps you cope with life's big curveballs. I wish you well.