{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

I'm sorry you lost your Nanny. From what you've said about her in the past, I know she was an amazing woman.
Don't worry about the bike. It's miserably hot and when your head's not in the right place, it can really be hard to make yourself get out there. You'll want to ride soon, you're just really overwhelmed lately. The temps will cool and you'll fall in love with your bikes and riding again. Don't be too hard on yourself. Sit on the couch, watch tv, and do nothing if that's how you're feeling right now. It's OK.
Take care!!!