SheFly - oh, I am so sorry
It feels terrible, I know, I lost my only brother suddenly 3 years ago. Suddenly becoming an only child packs a doozy of an emotional punch too, even though you're an adult. It took closer to two years before I really accepted this as the new normal. Hang in there!
Your brother knew you loved him.
Winter riding is much less about badassery and much more about bundle-uppery. - malkin
1995 Kona Cinder Cone commuterFrankenbike/Selle Italia SLR Lady Gel Flow
2008 white Nakamura Summit Custom mtb/Terry Falcon X
2000 Schwinn Fastback Comp road bike/Specialized Jett